“Un-belonging” as Sacred
I have always been a different child. A child who always remained aloof in the gang of kids while other kids celebrated, danced, played and had fun.
There was something in me that kept me on the outskirts and a spectator, not that anyone isolated me or ostrecised me. The little girl just couldn’t mix in. She couldn’t explain but she was “different”.
Fast forward 45 years and this girl still feels like an alien, socially awkward, internally cringing, lonely and odd amidst huge crowds.
I am sure there are many of us who have felt that they do not fit in or that they are awkward or that they do not belong in a given social setting or rather most social settings.
Being odd or different doesn’t have to cause us pain and sorrow. But, unfortunately the feeling of not belonging or not having like minded resonating souls to communicate with or just BE with can be an excruciatingly painfilled existence.
Not being able to fit in or belong, often plants the seed “I am not important and that I donot matter”. We start believing that we are insignificant and we donot have a place in this world.
We start believing and internalising, “something is wrong with me” or “as time goes by a deep sense of unworthiness and inadequacy creeps in”
This also, unknowingly and quite unfortunately leads to a subconscious existential crisis.
We unconsciously start hiding and contracting our energies while bursting inside with a lot to say and express. We definitely FEEL a lot. And these feelings often donot have an outlet. They suffocate inside or at times find an outlet in some form of art or addiction or illness.
We all are wired for connection and community. We all have an innate need to be heard, to be not judged, to be acknowledged, to be seen and to be validated. And yet, this entire spiritual quest is about BEING who we are with rootedness and self assuredness. It is about being comfortable with who we are at our deepest core.
While living with and grieving about my “unbelonging, a desire is born in me to “To make SACRED our unbelonging”.
I wish to bring together people like you and me who feel “we donot fit in”, who feel “we need a space to talk, be heard, be seen and most importantly BE HELD unconditionally.
I don’t know whether this sacred circle will build into a sacred community, but I wish to make a beginning.
I want to reach out, I want to be a container, I wish to hold space and I also wish to be held.
The circle will not be all dark and gloomy..but there will be fun and laughter, tears of joy and tears of pain.
Most importantly a “safe” space where our stories can be heard and shared. A space where we are not shamed for who we are but a space where we can rest and be free.
Isn’t this also part of our innate feminine energy, learning to re-wild itself?
If you are someone who resonates with this write up, feel free to knock the door.
This is just an idea right now and I am leaving it to the universe to give it shape and build it as we go along.
Let’s begin.