The more we ‘push hard’ to heal something, the more we defy the core of healing, that we are actually already whole.
This entire push to correct, fix, heal actually takes us away from the simplicity and wholeness which the healing process should induce and bring forth.
If you are with a healer, no matter how great he/she is, if he/she cannot remind you of your own wholeness and simplicity of your healing process, but rather induces fear or rather inculcates complexity, then you should know you are being manipulated to feeling ‘less than’ the whole and complete that you already are.
Healing can NEVER happen from a space of feeling ‘less than’ from within because then we are chasing the same dog who keeps barking at us and yet eludes us.
Neither do we enjoy the companionship or unconditional love of that dog nor does it ever become our ally. It instead remains our tormentor in chief.
And the worst part is, modality after modality, healing after healing, this torment does not cease.
It only perpetuates.
That is why our healing process never seems to end because like a product driven culture we too are in a rush always to fix it, heal it so that we do not feel the pain, uncertainty, anguish and fear of the chaos.
This is where we get exploited into believing that healing requires a LOT from us.
What I am learning and re-learning is that healing is actually very simple. We all need to remember that the universe is not an evil entity chasing us BUT it is a benevolent force partnering with us.
However, sometimes what seems to be working against us, is actually working towards and for us.
How only if we had our wise ones, ancient ones, elders, true loving guides in the human realm they would so profoundly re-iterate this wisdom to us.
This is where our connection to the Divine/creator/to our own SELF/Great Spirit is wholesomely encouraged to be developed.
After Paul left, my sense of self has been extremely diminished. And the repetitive and the only message I could trust coming from Paul was, “Develop your connection” to Spirit.
This statement in its entirety is only opening up its various petals, now, as I reflect upon my illness (mental, emotional, spiritual and physical).
The healing journey though feels endless and painful, is and can actually be simple.
All we need to learn is to just BE with our self, understand the SELF and reclaim the SELF.
Rest everything automatically falls into its place. Even the pieces of the puzzle which so often befuddle us always.